Thursday, February 09, 2012
Sad Note from Palomino
This is not an easy one to write. Just a
short time ago, Little Mister left this earth and joined his mother in
heaven. I started the proverbial "why?", for about two seconds, and
then I realized I knew why. I truly believe God puts us where we are
supposed to be. We were supposed to spend these last two days with this
beautiful colt, so he would die surrounded by love and peace and not
alone and afraid. I am so thankful to the folks at Palomino Valley for
allowing us to make his last few days a little less scary, especially
after he had become an orphan.
Last night, Little Mister, (although he didn't feel
too great), did have some fun. He got into everything in the "borrowed
foal room", and immediately became our "son". After his temperature had
spiked and Cat (Kindsfather) drove me through the night to get to
Shirley's house to get meds, I was given a memory I will always
treasure. As soon as I walked in the room and he heard my voice, he
gave this tiny, kind of screechy little whinny and jumped to his feet.
"Mommy was home". These are the moments that make what we do worth
while when we have nights like this. He was quite the little talker
and would whinny if we went into the other room for more than a few
minutes. We shared a lot of love in a short time.
Little Mister was beautiful, but apparently when he
was born there was some unknown problem. The vet was shocked that he
was so sick after she did the blood work, because the test that shows
whether a little one got his or her antibodies (through mommy's
colostrum) came out so positive. She showed it to me several times
because it was such a positive result. Today when I took him in, his
gums were showing tinges of blue/purple, indicating that he was not
getting enough oxygen. He had minimal gut sounds at best, and his heart
rate was extremely high. His poor little heart was trying so hard to
pump enough blood to get enough oxygen, but his tiny little lungs were
too compromised. He had severe pneumonia, which can be so deadly to the
tiny foals. If he had been born in the wild, most likely the stallion
would have killed him, or the mares would have, or he would have been
left behind, alone and scared, to suffer a horrible death. So although
my heart is breaking, I am so thankful and feel so honored that we got
to spend his last days with him. He knew he was surrounded by love, and
although he was meant to leave this earth way too early, I know that it
helped him for us to be there. We were with him until the end, and
although it is so sad, it was also a huge blessing for him as the
pneumonia had progressed so far. He simply could not get enough air.
We can't save every foal, although I wish we could,
but we do everything we possibly can for every second that we have with
them. I truly appreciate you all being part of this and sharing the
good times and the not so easy times. I was asked if I was going to
"take a break", but that isn't how it works. We celebrate the ones we
can help, and mourn the ones that we can't, all the while knowing that
at any second, another one might need us. I am grateful that this is
where God wants me to be. There is so much joy in it, along with the
Take care and God Bless - and give your critters an extra hug!
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Terri Farley @ 10:09 AM
Wow I almost started crying reading that. He sounded like a brave lil guy :) I'm so sad about your loss, I'll be praying for you. Thank you for what you do
very sorry for the loss. sounds like he fought hard to stay. it warms the heart to hear that he had so much joy and loving care in his last days.
Rest easily, little one. You were a brave colt, and in my heart, you will always be. Thank you, Palomino, for taking care of him.
It takes a very old soul to realize the gift that was given!